Are facts and the truth really the same thing? Einstein was probably more concerned with his theory than the truth. But, he needed the truth, facts to prove that what he was thinking was correct. He depended on concrete to prove his jello wasn’t just jello. Without the concrete, well, you get the idea.
But, if the concrete he had wasn’t gonna make what he wanted… if it wasn’t going to set hard enough, he needed to find the concrete that would. So, just because something isn’t as it seems with what’s in front of you, it doesn’t mean that seeming can’t be believing. Keep working at it… keep researching… but also know when the point to stop is reached. If you waste your time looking for something to prove what seems, you’ve lost.
There are many, many more of these guidelines… and in reality, they should be written in pencil for easier amending. I rather like to think of them as roadsigns…little bits of guidance as you make your way through the twists and turns.
I know there’s really nothing abundantly new on this list that hasn’t been thought about, shared, discussed or ignored before. These are just the guidelines I feel help me. Yes, I am a squirrel that keeps a journal… you’re reading part of it now.
But what do I know, I’m just a squirrel. Please share this with someone you think could use a little guidance.
This messy place is where creation takes place. It sounds religious… but it’s not. It’s spiritual.
This is what Frank sits before nearly every single day. Sometimes, this is a place of joy, other times there is just the sound of a head thudding against white masonite. That ruler you see has been with Frank for nearly 20 years. He never misses an opportunity to tell me where he got it…1994, Central Avenue, Albany, NY. A mom and pop office supply store that is long gone. It was one of those places that had inventory piled from floor to ceiling and aisles that barely allowed a single body room to navigate it. He needed it for an art class… never thought it’d still be with him years later. “This thing was made to outlast me. So far, we’re even.”
He loves it here. This is the same board he’s had for 11 years. The ink splotches in the lower right hand corner have been layered and layered to the point where they are currently 1/4 of an inch high. I’m not sure if that’s cool or a waste of ink.
The pen holder above the ink splotches is nothing but old dirty kneaded eraser. Too sticky to use on drawings, but perfect to act as a gravity inhibitor for pens. (the board is set at a slight angle.)
On the left hand side, there’s the light box. He doesn’t use this as much as he once did…most likely because he draws relatively fast now…trusting his instinct more and sketching less.
The pens, pencils and markers? They come and go as tools grow worn or run out of ink.
He’s had that pencil sharpener for 10 years too. Although that has recently been replaced. The new one sharpens faster and better, but it still will take some getting used to.
This is his altar. His most favorite corner of the world. I respect it. I wish I had something as special as he has in this well worn place. It’s beautiful.
There are times when you can pinpoint the cause of depression, sometimes not so much. It could be one little trigger… a candy wrapper crumbled on the floor, a leaf floating past a window you just happened to be looking out of, who knows?
Even if you could pinpoint what un-pressed you to begin with, what does that change? Do you immediately feel euphoric? Probably not. Sometimes you just have to ride it out.
So you avoid candy wrappers and looking out windows on windy days…then what? If you don’t know what will trigger the next wave, how can you avoid anything? You can’t… just ride it out. It’ll all work out.
A weed is one of the toughest living things out there.
Picture a sidewalk. Sidewalks are made to make it easier for people to get from one place to another… without having to worry about getting hit by a vehicle (or a horse). They almost always go the same places that the road goes… But, the sidewalk is on the outside of the usual road traffic. It has its own type of traffic. They both get to the same places, they just get there in different ways and forms. Sidewalks are heavy… made of cement and concrete… but, they’re not “built”…they are poured into forms. So, sidewalks have the potential to be much more than a road can ever be. Their shape is not clearly defined until that form is made. sidewalks are colorless, grey, white… but every once and a while, a weed, seemingly weak and meek, manages to break through the rigid structure and breathe. Persistence gets you through those cracks, persistence makes those cracks… persistence shows the will to live. I think we could all learn a lesson for that weed… striving towards a tiny sliver of light… to live.
You can’t control where the sidewalks go or how they are poured, but you can control those cracks… those openings, those little rifts in the structure, are what you have to grow through to see the pale blue sky and warm your petals in the sun.
That’s hard. but that’s what you have to, or though past choices, are forced to do.
It would be great to be in a vast field where you could grow as tall and high as you want…but then you’d just be another weed in a sea of blooms.
A dandelion growing through a sidewalk is infinitely more beautiful to me than an acre of roses.